18/09/2024

What should I draw?

I started reading Higurashi like 2 days ago. I'm already 7 hours in and on part 7 of Chapter 1. It's very good, Rena is my favourite. I really like the original artstyle, all the remade sprites are so generic and boring. Uhm, I've also started to really lock in and work on my summer break sketchbook. Yeah, it's not even summer anymore. I want to continue using it until it gets full though because I've always wanted to be a guy with a sketchbook but I could never keep up with it and would just draw randomly in any book or piece of paper that I could find. I'll upload some of my best stuff from there onto this site, I've already added a few things. Nothing is more satisfying than when you fill up a sketchbook so much that it starts to get really thick and can barely close. I'm still struggling so hard to think of stuff to make original art, I don't know what's up with me. I need to be prompted or something. I want to make stuff with a deeper meaning but I also want to make stuff that's just visually cool, I feel like I'm in a pretty balanced place between those but nothing I'm making is partiularly that interesting. What should I draw... I'm feeling very excited to start going back to university this month. I'm going to be so studious and shit. Gonna make tons of good art (though that's not going to great for me right now). I'm going to be so sad when I graduate.

I've started to kinda eat better again. Like, I think I've got a little more diversity in my diet lately. I started eating fruits, vegetables and more protein. It's so easy to slip into just eating noodles and pasta over and over. I still eat a lot of pasta but mostly wraps now. I want to start working out again because that only lasted me like a week... It's hard to find time and also to be in the mood.

This paragraph used to be a big stream of thoughts rant but I'm nervous it doesn't make sense or would be misunderstood so basically; man, don't you hate it when someone is real annoying and you put up with it somehow but the moment you do something sort of annoying on accident to that person they literally overreact so hard and act like you are the worst person ever? I literally do not understand how so many people I deal with think the world revolves around them, it makes me nervous that I'm also like this when I just really don't think I am most of the time.