Fundamental questions concerning topics
I'm not really sure what to call it when I get in a mood like this where I just can't stop thinking about random stuff and get the urge to bug everyone with these thoughts or post them annoyingly online. I guess I'm just feeling philosophical right now. And isn't this the best place on the internet for me to dump all these thoughts.
I just spoke to some of my friends about this idea I've had since I was a young teenager that we currently live in the future. This is all just like a glass half empty half full idea that is completely based on personal perspective, I know we actually live in the present. I think the reason I think this is because I hold so much nostalgia for the 80s, 90s and 00s. Not only do I think we live in the future but a dystopian future. Obviously there are a lot of issues with the world but I mostly thought about it from an aesthetic and social stand point today. I'm always sad we don't live in the imagined futures of the people of the late 20th century and 00s. Why doesn't my laptop look like an iBook? Where are the frutiger inspired graphics? I just hate minimalism with a passion and always have. I hate the way the internet is right now too. I can't even get into this on my blog because I have so many thoughts about web revival and the current state of the internet; I'm sure you do too if you're browsing some random guys Neocities blog.
I wish I had more friends online. I'm not sure why I'm so bad at finding people that want to be email penpals or something like that. I really miss having a penpal. I feel like I make myself seem approachable in that sense but I don't know. Maybe I need to use forums more and reach out to other people more instead of blindly posting how I would like to talk to people more.
I keep stressing about how muc I want to do in the world and how little time I have while sitting back and not doing anything. I feel like I make a lot more stuff than the average person but it still doesn't feel like enough. I got crazy productivity anxiety. This gets to me to the point that sometimes I plan every single thing I do somewhere and in what order to maximise time efficiency and sometimes I literally speed walk everywhere I go to save time no matter how much agony my legs are in. Very weird.
I can't think of what else was running around in my mind so I guess I'm done with this for today.
