I am more than my physical body. Because I am more than physical matter, I can perceive that which is greater than the physical world.
Therefore, I deeply desire to Expand, to Experience; to Know, to Understand; to Control, to Use such greater energies and energy systems as may be beneficial and constructive to me and to those who follow me.
Also, I deeply desire the help and cooperation, the assistance, the understanding of those individuals whose wisdom, development and experience are equal or greater than my own.
I ask their guidance and protection from any influence or any source that might provide me with less than my stated desires.

After Gateway Tape 2#: Probably my least successful session. It started well but just as I was meant to be putting my body to sleep I became so easily agitated. the sounds of my neighbours being loud was annoying me so bad and i was finding my pillow so uncomfortable on my neck. Now thats sort of my fault because my neck was in a bad position. I really need to use a different pillow. I threw my pillow away at some point but that was uncomfortable and the sound of blood beating into my head was driving me crazy. I rewound to the countdowns beginning again and put my pillow back but now i had a pain in my left eye that just wouldn't go away. Im going to retry this tomorrow, later in the night when everyones asleep. I find myself becoming a lot less afraid of the tapes. I need to preplan things to put in my energy conversion box.

(Moon Phase: Waxing Gibbous, Position: Laying on back with quilt over my body and pillow too high, Time: Just before midnight)

07/06/25

After Gateway Tape 1#: I, again, didn't allow myself to fully and deeply meditate into this one, occasionally allowing myself to feel present and grounded because of slight nervousness. I found the resonance tunning audio pretty creepy but tried to stay positive. I was feeling extremely positive at the begining of this session. It wasnt until about a minute before the final count down to wake up did i feel vibrations on my face and hands, not the same as when I first did the example tape though where the vibrations were extremelt intense. I think this was from the resonance tunning even though I didn't feel it right after the tunning. I'm going to try out this tape again tomorrow and let myself go fully into it. I think I would experience even stronger effects from the resonance tuning then too and I know ehat to expect.

(Moon Phase: Waxing Gibbous, Position: Laying on back with quilt over my body, Time: Middle of The night.)

06/06/25

After Gateway Tape 0# (second attempt): I went into it this time a lot more carefully and allowing myself to pull out of the trance slightly occasionally when I felt like I was about to get anxious. That mean just slightly wiggling my fingers and toes when I could feel them going numb. My hands were very cold by the end of the session. I managed to wake up when the tapes told me to rather than jolting awake suddenly. I left it feeling no real anxiety unlike the first time but I definitely didn't go as deep into it as the first time. I feel like knowing I have the ability to control my senses and how did I go and that I can wake up whenever has made me feel a lot less scared about the process so I feel ready maybe to move onto tape #1 (ORIENTATION). I have a slight headache currently but it'll probably pass after I drink some water and eat.

(Moon Phase: Waxing Gibbous, Position: Laying on back with legs crossed but eventually straighten them, Time: Afternoon.)

05/06/25

After Gateway Tape 0#: I found it very easy to relax and it probably helped that I've meditated for months prior to listening. I layed on my back, no blanket, loose clothes, head resting on a pillow, hands laced on my chest to help with a fuzzy feeling I get in my chest when I meditate on my back.

My body slowly gets heavier as I attempt to let my limbs slowly fall asleep. It starts with my legs and eventually my hands. At some point my whole body begins to get heavy and then my face. It's just before the final countdown to wake up at the end of the video when I see flashing white behind my eyes and my hands are tingling. I try to go with the flow and my face starts to tingle but I just can't help the fear I suddenly feel and I jolt to full alert but for maybe a full second I can't move my hands and that makes my heart race faster. The audio felt so intense and anxiety inducing. I sit up breathing fast, heart pounding as the count down to calmly wake up begins but I'm already fully awake.

I'm not sure what got me so anxious to suddenly bolt awake but I'll attempt this audio again next time I want to enter a trance. I'll move on when I don't get anxious from the first one.

A few hours later I experienced the feeling you get before a panic attack, dizziness, fuzziness around my third eye chakra, fuzziness around my heart chakra, nausea. This was while I was out of the house and I feel a lot better since getting into bed.

(Moon Phase: Waxing Gibbous, Position: Laying on back with fingers laced over chest, Time: Early evening.)