Happy Halloween Eve

It's halloween tomorrow, yay. I'm gonna go to a party. My costume is a zombie scientist. I already went to another party last weekend at home. Some people in my family pick on me so bad because I'm transgender, it's very annoying. It makes me sad that I will never be seen with respect by some people, even people I'm related to because they feel like they need to fight the woke agenda everyday. They make me seem like I'm so sensitive when I defend myself because I respect myself enough to do that. In reality, they're the sensitive ones. Going crazy at the idea that I can feel offended by things they don't understand why it's offensive. It makes me feel like I'm insane. And no one will defend me. I wish people could realise how hurtful they are. Do they think it makes them seem cool? It's so terminally on Facebook thinking. I never create these situations either, I don't do anything wrong and I'm put into a situation where my option is just sit there like an idiot or defend myself. That's another thing. I hate when people think I'm sensitive because I'll point out things I don't like no matter how small it is. I will never stop respecting myself like that though. And I don't care if that offends some close minded idiots. I don't want to argue I just want to be respected and if you can't respect me at least shut up because no one cares about whatever negativity you want to spread. This all sounds very "teenager discovers oppression" but that's just my very specific thoughts being generalised so I don't spill paragraphs of information and thoughts. I get so scared thinking about a future where I have to deal with this everyday.

I've been reading a lot of comics recently, yay. I love comics so much. How the hell did people read comics before the internet existed? I would now know any reading orders or how to tell what was the begining of a new story arch. I guess you find out somehow in the comic book store and the stuff in the last couple of pages of a comic book. I wish comic book stores weren't a thing of the past. I say that as someone that reads most of my comics for free but I know people used to read comics at the store and only buy a couple too. Comic book stores don't even sell comics anymore. Me and my boyfriend complain about this all the time. Where I live we have a chain comic book store which sells some pretty good stuff, new comics, a ton of great TPBs, lots of new merch that isn't just funko pops and crap (though there are a lot of funko pops and crap) and some manga and anime stuff too. There's another place that's local and sells secondhand stuff but they literally have no comics anymore. A lot of the stuff is overpriced crap too and the owner always misgenders me and my friends. There are other chain stores too but the rest suck ass and just sell funko pops, mugs, cheap pins, ugly tshirts, just a bunch of crap. And no comics. A new one recently opened too that just sells funko pops and crap too but again, no comics. These places close down all the time because they suck so much and I'm expecting that with this new place too.

I've been working on my dissertation. The first draft is due this Monday. I'm over half done and I'll definitely have it done in time with no stress. I also have a short graphic novel due next week that I probably won't have done on time but it doesn't matter too bad because the actual deadline is in December. I'll probably share that on my site when it's done if I don't get too embarassed. I have a lot of work that involves writting and/or narratives that I never share because I get too embarrased by them. I wish I didn't overthink everything I posted, I can post whatever cringe I want. I also finished a commission for an album cover yesterday, that should be on Spotify and Amazon Music by tomorrow. I'll post a link somewhere to it.

I really wish the Batman Forever Riddler fandom was bigger, it's like me and 2 other people floating around on the internet occasionally commenting on eachothers posts. I noticed someone I had never interacted with before on Tumblr in the Batman Forever fandom and started following them but I somehow stumbled upon a weird ship that they like and unfollowed :/ I mean correct me if I'm wrong isn't Tim Drake a kid and Jean-Paul Valley in his early 20s? IDK. Plus people that ship them seem to be into really weird incest type shit too. Whyyy is this JPV's most popular ship. I'm not even a part of the whole proshippers and antis war, I think both sides make stupid points but I know paedophilia is bad lol. Again, correct me if I'm wrong about this being bad but I'm pretty damn sure I'm right.